over-confident….
results, maybe i really deserve to failed the papers of my foundation..n need to spend another 6 months for it….seeing that almost 95% of my friends passed their exam..n advance themselves into acca..n yet..i need to remain at de foundation level…do u know how harsh it would be….u kNOW…95%…almost let say…10 of my fren….9 of them are goin to be at de same class..n i m de only one…haih…
do feel guilty about my achievement…n moreover, though tat my parents never blame me for anythin cos they know tat i m havin a hard time at the moment now…n they believe that i m mature enough to think……haih..this make me feel more guilty…they trusted me so much..n yet..i m now..being so disappointed….haih……….:(
Before gettin the results, i still be able to advice others for not to worry about it…no big DEAl right..but now..it really make a biG Big different to me…speak can be easy..but seriously when u wan to apply it…definitely is not tat easy as wat u think….haih…:(
Failure is a key to success..this is wat normally ppl use to encourage n give support those ppl who met failure….but haih…..i dunno lo….but i might really once again..deserve to be gettin this kind of result…cos of my playful kind of attitude….mahjong..movie…yam char..(MAMAkin)…n more…honestly, i had learnt a lesson from all this….in whatever that u wanted to do…if let say without great determination, u are goin to fail no matter how confident u r..just like me..sometimes which is too over-confident…n claimin tat myself always be obtained a pass in watever test in college….n yet..in de finals…i m unable to even obtain a pass…..haih….so…wat else i can say about myself….speak frankly..is NTH…i also dunno wat else i can do about myself…laugh at myself…or wat….suicide myself from a building…haha..i m not tat stupid until wanna to end up my life with such silly action…haih….
til now..i m still unable to accept the truth..to be honest, if let say i got the time machine…i shall do n give more n more n more EFFORT for de papers….haih….well, is nth much i can do now….callin for other to share my pain…but no cure would it make now…haih..really do feel like transferin course…since i think i m more capable in marketing n sales…since i m quite approachable…especially talkin to others…that i dunno…..n moreover, now i m gettin more n more frustrated n demotivated..
about wat i did after class today..dun wan to mention anythin about it…nth so special….only update it tml…til then…guess i wanna to enjoy the last day of mine….n get myself ready for de comin busy schedule of mine…which got class almost on everyday…8 in the morning….til then….really wanted to cry…n regret..but unfortunately…it is too late…..haih……:(
