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As usual, it is the time to dictate down everythin tat happened n occured for the whole week…..

Wed:Progress Test for my resit papers…7 & 8…thought almost all de questions in the papers were done before….previous sittin…in the tutorial or maybe the discussion with lecturers..especially p8….but somehow..still not really good of writin it out again….n use my greatest blessed ability again….BULLSHITTIN technique….which i hopefully it will helps me to pass those papers…but speak frankly, i dun really give a damn about de pt or mock anymore..cos now my mind has its own set that…those tests are 100% misleading to me….at my current level, i think last minute n midnight oil technique are still quite useful n applicable to me….

Thurs: Most of my frens were doin their last paper…BT…..after they had finished their exam..then we went for chau Yang Pasar Malam…n spent a wonderful time there…by crapping n chi chattin….this was a best method ever to release their tension since they had been concentrated n studied very very hard for de exams..especially LAw paper….which gonna to kill almost every single of them…..

Fri: Wat normally u will do when u r runnin out of money…..wat else….WORK lolx…haih….working in ONe Utama again…Giant hypermarket…promoting product aNlene…doin only education trialing…not wet sampling..so..my mouth have to be keep on talkin n talkin..n appraoching to consumers……n it has to be said it was very tiring n exhausted..cos need to stand for a few hours…..
However, though it was a tiring day for me…but i went for midnight movie with my frens….we watched City of the Dead….which is quite horrifyin..i assume it shall be..but unfortunately it had disappointed me….n plus, the show is only 1 n half hrs…..haih….

Sat: Day before the mooncake Fest….as usual..work lolx….nth so special…regarding The EPL…definitely i will be catchin up with the latest news..n scoreline….but one thing i m just wonderin that why Chelsea win again this week against Charlton…haih…**MAN U FANS HERE

Sun:SAme thing…work, work n work…though today is the mooncake festival..n normally every year i will be stayin at home…or mayb goin back to grandma’s house to celebrate or have dinner with the whole family…but wat to do…financial difficulty…have to sacrifice a bit lolx….
And Here Come to the end of the week…the climax….which after my work…i went to fetch my college frens to yam char at asia cafe as de presice celebration of mooncake fest…however, after droppin two of them stayin in the Hostel….n guess wat happen???my car is knocked by the a Kelisa….OMG..wtf!!!This time i m so sure it is not my fault…n the person who knocked my car…also claimin that is her Fault…so at first she wanted to pay on the spot…but cos me myself…also dunno how much de damage would be..i rejected her offer…n request for her details so tat i could do some follow up kind of thing..after i send my car to be repaired….haih..wat a day..>!!!!the car site door is damaged…the left front n de back as well….just a roughly estimation..i guess it would cost around RM500….

**supposingly should be talkin somethin about the EPL..but…frustrated edi….dun feel like typing it anymore…!!!

Haih..here come to the conclusion of the week, horrible week…though thought that mooncake should be a wonderful n nice event..but somehow it ended up with such a good anti-climax….haih……

Wow….thinkin back all de sweet memories of wat we
had durin de secondary…..those were de days….hanging around…spendin time
together in watchin football matches…especially whenever there is match
between MAn U against other team…all of us…will be sittin in front de tv..n
watch de match together in his house….and at de same time, buying some
snacks…drinks…n etc to enjoy it when watchin de live match…haih….but now
he is leaving to Uk…by tonight..n yet..i forgot to sms him to wish him all de
best of his trip…n also his studies in UK….wat kind of fren is this..konon
best buddy….T_T…cos too concentratin in watchin desperate housewivies
earlier…damn it..!!!!but one thing i can sure that, all of our friends here
will be missing him a lot…

though he is not
the first one who leave msia n go oversea study….if i m not mistaken, he is
the 3rd one…among my best buddy in class last time…..Seeing that one by one
is leaving…i can feel that when u grow bigger…elder…n a step nearer to an
adult, there would not be much close friends around….wat old folks use to say,
when u grow elder…more n more u need to worry…problems….financial or
non-financial…or perhaps conflicts…..haih….in short, i prefer to be a
ordinary teens instead of growin up to become an adult….or maybe
children…those youngsters which only spendin time in skewl…..dun u think
so..?i dare to say that, many of them outside..especially those adults that are
really depressed…or stressed up…..i believe them at least 90% of the group
are wish they can go back into the past…perhaps….make their childhood more n
more happier….

However, due to the exam papers that i m havin
tml..though there are only resit papers…not FInal…i m unable to accompany my
fren to the airport….really feel guilty about it…n wishin him all the best
from my bottom of my heart…n hope to keep in touch with him thru de internet
since he brought a webcam together with him….

Guess, that is
enough from me tonight..which i suppose to be doin my revision….well, hoping
that i can do well in the PT…n also….will be glad as if the time can move
slowly….dun feel like growin up….:P…

Wat a day for me again…haih…..i mean i should be sayin tat…haih..so
this is de situation, last night…my mom say tat dun hav enough money to go
pasar pagi the next morning, in short, runnin out of cash, so she need some
cash..n therefore, i was asked to withdraw the money from her acc…n at de same
time, i wanna to check my account as well…checking whether my cheque had been
cashed…n credited into my acc…

Supposingly after withdrawin the
money, i should be goin home after tat, but yet…my stomach clamin n complainin
that "he" is hungry, as a results, i went to SS3…which near my house to get my
supper to cure myself..Hehe…:P
after finish tap pao-In the food, i quickly
drive home n thought could b eatin the food…but unfortunately, my mom atm card
was missing when i givin back the money n receipt to
her…OMG…wtF!!!so…quickly…went back to search for the card, at the
stall..and in front of the bank…..hopin that the card is somewhere at those
places n not been collected or picked by any1……however, as a result, unable
to find it…n therefore, i have to inform the 24hrs bankin hotline..n request
them to terminate my mom’s atm card asap…haih..:(..To be continued..!!!

Which day i suppose to start first, let me see, it shall be on last saturday which i have to work, n yet…i claimed myself i m sick n tired of workin on weekends consecutively in August…n so..i decided to take a break on this two days…basically, if i m not mistaken, i think i almost spent most of the break time by sleepin n dreamin at home…in my room…n on my bed…SUnday, i guess it should be the same…just did somethin extra which is washed my dad’s car..Wira tat has not been washed for more than 2mths…i assume it…based on the dirt stick on the "outlook" of the car n how dusty in the car….this is my dad workin car..he used to keep all his renovation equipment inside…in the boot behind…n also wat i last time used to call it..Small Lorry…which treated NICEly..by my dad…by fitting in with a convenience n flodable stair n as well as the simen packs….bricks…or maybe sometimes packages of TILEs….depends on wat type of my dad workin in the renovation course of his work…..

Anyway, nth so special….went Yam cHar with my friends also on de night itself…NAthan..meetin up with secondary skewl frens which had not been seeing each other for months….quite lot of topics we had chat n BORAK(**in malay)..about the sweet memory n also the HArd time we had went thru last time….those were de days….all of us really miss our secondary skewl life…which is more relaxing..though it might be a MUST for u to do those hwk given…n unlikely nowadays in College….normally de lecturer wont be checkin the works….but however, lifestyle at that time, i think i m more self-discpline…n pretty well in my time management as well…..no pressure…need not necessary to think that much…..And because of this, i m totally agree of wat old folks use to say a statement that..whenever u grow more mature or older….there will be more things u need to be worried n to be considering….

The next day, MOnday….which after my class in COllege….n before i wanted to have my short nap, my supervisor called me up n told me tat my cheque is ready…n since i m quite Poor at the moment, without any hestitation, i quickly drove de car n went to de office n collect my cheque…n also the cheque on behalf of my sis……BUt, guess wat happened before i even collected the cheque….Accident…which caused a few stratches on my car…n i knocked down a motorbike….though i dun think it was my fault….cos i had lighten up my signal light before i make the turnin….n yet..the cyclist claimed himself that…i was the one who knocked him down, n end up i required to pay Rm70 after negotiation as compensation to him..for the damages on his Bike…WTF….at first, i think it was really bad luck for me..cos no witnesses around at de scene…n since he is MAlay…which i think he is those type of ppl who use to threaten ppl..or maybe takin advantage on others….n guess wat else, when at first i planned not to pay any compensation, he tends to use his helmet to knock my face….and because of that, under no other alternative, i have to settle with him..by payin him a lesser amount which he firstly wanted for Rm100 for the damages…

In short, maybe u guyz might be thinkin that i should be reporting the police..sHould I??but anyway…i think it will cause more n more inconvenience for me, n more importantly, time consuming……therefore, i had learnt a lesson here..though i m studyin law now..theoratically…but i think practical experiences are much much more important…..

Well, because of watever i had mentioned above, this month..i will be definitely havin a great Financial difficulty….n moreover, sooner..weeks later..i m attendin the sunwayball…..so..this few weeks….i guess i need to be lower down my expense…..

Nth so special on tuesday..so need not necessary to write anythin…regardin on Wed..which is TOday…i had attended my job training again..for a different product….n pretty disappointed with my own performance especially durin the role-Play session….i was like maybe too Nervous….n when i roling as the promoter, i totally forgot all my scripts..which i had written down…seriously…95% of watever i m supposed to be sayin….n moreover, it was in front of the Client….so end up i m giving a "GOOD" impression to him….though i had not sounded by my supervisor or the client himself….but do feel guilty about it…cos as a qualified promoter, i should not be tat nervous…n worse come to worse….i m not allowed to forget those things i should be sayin as according in the script…..OMg….wat’s wrong with me…??Izzit because i m too over-confident again n again..n thought tat at de beginnin i m good enough edi…therefore, is not necesary for me to practice so much….n i m capable in handlin all kind of unexpected circumstances…..but haih…..

Supposingly now i should be in the law class and havin the minor test given by the lecturer…but due to i had deferred the paper, i cant do it n therefore i have to skip the class….in fact, i think i m not ready for the test anyway….cos knowin tat i m not gonna to sit for such paper this round…is not a MUSt for me to work very hard for it…but however, still need a bit of hardwork there i assume i should….or maybe in other words, i m too lazy edi…dun dare to sit for de test..though it does not constitute any loss…or wat i say..is harmless, but i just do not have the guts to sit..n do de test, n moreover, i m totally unprepared…

well, guess that’s all from me about my class today, let mention about my work, til now..still have not assigned by any job yet..or maybe i just dun feel like working this week, would wan to enjoy a great n relaxin weekend…n plus, PT is comin..for the previous paper, n therefore, guess it shall be de time for me to get rid of my laziness, n start revising..n recallin back my knowledge..of those i previously learnt before, n hopefully i can apply everythin effective n efficiency in the papers….

Regarding my class yesterday, it was audit class which previously i attended before, but since i had failed, then i have to attend de class n repeating doin those question again n again…n guess wat..i was asked to occupy the front seat of de class, feel like so embrassing though i understand it is de process, n mayb i really need tat kind of thing n only at tat time, i m only be able to self-discipline myself…to work hard toward watever tat i wanted n dreamt for….my goals…my objective…n etc…….

Seems tat i m quite patriotic….talkin about
national day tonight…actually..i m not tat really patrioism kind of
person….cos i never go for any national celebration event…for instance..the
nearest, SUnway pyramid..which some kind of event were held there….guess it
will be crowded by the public….Nth special, cant see anythin from my house,
though pyramid is just few KMs away from my house…only hearin those numberious
fireworks being fired n lighted up into the sky….

anyway, went to watch a
movie last night, drink drank drunk with friends….a chinese movie..quite
nice..advisable others to watch it as well…..
precisely nth so special
about wat happen yesterday…..n thus, dunno wat else i can
write..

n also, i had done with my
deferment of my subjects….since i had failed my papers last round…negotiated
with the admin staff…n able to exempt some payment..n able to save some money
there….next week onward, need to attend the resit class….til then, wanna to
enjoy my time while i still can…though college’s exam will be around the
corner within 2 weeks, i assume…if i m not mistaken with my timetable…n
guess time to study after the public holiday tml…

lastly, need a
wonderful closing for my blog tonight…so let write down some patriotic words
here..in malay to show how patriotic m i!!***in other words, just wanna to test
my MAlay…since i never been talkin using malay….for a long long period
edi..since after graduated from SPM…
Sila bermula…
Malaysia, sebuah negara yang berbilang
kaum,
kini Ia sudah mencapai tahun
48th,
dan Ia sudah mendapat pengiktirafan
daripada pelbagai negara,
merupakan salah
sebuah negara di ASia yang berjaya,
pencapaian dari segi teknology atau dari aspect lain juga
agak mengagumkan,
Oleh itu, KIta sebagai
rakyat Malaysia harus bangga dengan negara kita,
marilah sama sama menyambut HAri Kebangsaan n kibarkan
Jalur kegemilangan….!!

It had been a tough week for me seriously, ruined by my "wonderful results"…but however, it had already become one of my lesson in my study n now it is the time for me to get back into my track n carry on wat i m born 2 BE….

Friday, still attended the law class n IS class..though i should not be encouraged to enter since i m not takin such papers this round….but anyway, dun border so much..just attend for fun..since it would not causes any harm to me…Durin the 3 hrs break on tat day itself, went to Asia cafe with coursemate…n had our lunch there n also a few games of pool n foosball…Nth so much, just tat..that was my first time playin foosball, n guess wat..i scored a few own goals…n felt so embrassed about it….HEhe…:P

Saturday, as usual, work again…the same old thing..TS in Giant ONe U…giving n distributin out the free tickets…from the afternoon til night…nth so special…just tat my legs gettin exhausted n pain…cos need to stand for few hrs n talkin n talkin n approach consumers..non-stop….
however, later at night…went to meet with my fren..n she introduced me n my fren another two new frens…sound complicated right…anyway, nth so special..just get to know more friends…..later on, went to yam char with another group of my fren as well….

The next day, SUNDAY, last day of my work…definitely be more motivated automatically since once i had done with my this week job assignment…i’ll be free…since i m not being assigned by any project yet..though i have a few jobs are under my consideration……
n lastly, me n my fren went to TBR…a housing area…somewhere near setapak…TAR college…to find my fren which livin in the houses there…n watched the football match of NEwcastle against MAn u….but the main purpose of doin is to farewell one of my fren who will be leavin to UK-london within 2 weeks….guess that’s enough from me this week….
n besides tat, wan to talk about the football matches…though de final scoreline of MAN u is 2-0..goal contirbuted by rooney n nisterooy..but in fact, i think MAn u shall deserve a better win….dunno wat i m sayin..just refers to the newspaper the next day..n u will know…however, i think that de goal scored by rooney will be the goal of the week…..

When after receivin the results on few days ago…under normal circumstances
which i m no suppose to attend anymore of the classes in the higher level…but
due to my stubbornness, i do feel like attendin the class..or maybe just listen
wat her lecture…at least able to know tat wat is about the paper…n more, no
HARm for attendin the class twice right….but in other words, i might be just
like…………………do think watever u think…i dun border so
much..!!~!!

Meet up with my previous paper’s lecturer today…tellin them
i had failed the paper…though i can sense the disappointment from them..but
however, it is useless for me to confess anythin which had no effect after
all….haih…guess wat, a person who had failed his exam should be havin a "great" time..but based on my
outlook, i m like so n so TOUGH…n like i m givin nth about it…but yet..in
fact, i m not…being an optimism at this time….is not tat easy..i m still in
the level of doin so….

Progress test will be around de corner
soon…need time to prepare for it…n dont u think it is quite crucial to
me..especially for person like me….failed edi..n need to restore myself back
everythin within days…n get myself ready for the exam….n lastly, i think i
should not be iteratively mentioning about my result anymore…n also..need to
pray more in order to do well in the test…

Being so miserable after receiving my results,
though it might be very very VERY disappointing…but however, i think i m
gettin better edi….n also wan to take this opprtunity to thanks to all my
friends n buddies who always be with me when whatever happened to
me…..:)

Guess wat i did….the last ever mahjong i played this
morning..in one of my friend’s house…since i need to put more effort in my
studies….though i had lost…but i think it’s ok for me…since it is goin to
be the last time…unless i m really good n capable enough in my studies..then i
might be playin it again…but most probably..i m NOT!!!

besides that,
went to watch THE MAID with my ex-classmate…in IOI mall…the show overall
precisely is quite ok…n also de storyline..i think it is quite true also….n
it reflected how humans may react or do..whenever they think they did somethin
for the good of their child….n so on….

Friends are part
of my life nowadays…without them…i dun think i really can stand back again
whenever i fall..for instance…my results this time….n this shall motivate
me…to work more harder…n harder…since after u had unable to complete
somethin where u supposed to do…u will give more hard work towards the same
goal right…this is wat old folks ppl used to say..but i wish it will apply to
me as well…:)

lastly, regardin wat i did yesterday after gettin my
results, went to bowling with friends…in pyramid..which at first supposingly
goin for skating….but however, never make it..since it was the skewl holidays
now…there were too many ppl n too crowded…so..decide to cancel the plan….n
guess wat…years ago..i m consider OK in playin bowling..but now since i had
not been playin for more than 2 yrs…normally my score will like 150 or
more…but now…yesterday i mean….i m only manage to bowl like 130++ n for
the first game..it is only 90++..haha….haih…anyway..had a great time
there…quite enjoyable…

**try to count
how many times i typed HAIH..in my previous blog…must be more than 10times..i
assume it….haha…HAih….

results, maybe i really deserve to failed the papers of my foundation..n need to spend another 6 months for it….seeing that almost 95% of my friends passed their exam..n advance themselves into acca..n yet..i need to remain at de foundation level…do u know how harsh it would be….u kNOW…95%…almost let say…10 of my fren….9 of them are goin to be at de same class..n i m de only one…haih…

do feel guilty about my achievement…n moreover, though tat my parents never blame me for anythin cos they know tat i m havin a hard time at the moment now…n they believe that i m mature enough to think……haih..this make me feel more guilty…they trusted me so much..n yet..i m now..being so disappointed….haih……….:(

Before gettin the results, i still be able to advice others for not to worry about it…no big DEAl right..but now..it really make a biG Big different to me…speak can be easy..but seriously when u wan to apply it…definitely is not tat easy as wat u think….haih…:(

Failure is a key to success..this is wat normally ppl use to encourage n give support those ppl who met failure….but haih…..i dunno lo….but i might really once again..deserve to be gettin this kind of result…cos of my playful kind of attitude….mahjong..movie…yam char..(MAMAkin)…n more…honestly, i had learnt a lesson from all this….in whatever that u wanted to do…if let say without great determination, u are goin to fail no matter how confident u r..just like me..sometimes which is too over-confident…n claimin tat myself always be obtained a pass in watever test in college….n yet..in de finals…i m unable to even obtain a pass…..haih….so…wat else i can say about myself….speak frankly..is NTH…i also dunno wat else i can do about myself…laugh at myself…or wat….suicide myself from a building…haha..i m not tat stupid until wanna to end up my life with such silly action…haih….

til now..i m still unable to accept the truth..to be honest, if let say i got the time machine…i shall do n give more n more n more EFFORT for de papers….haih….well, is nth much i can do now….callin for other to share my pain…but no cure would it make now…haih..really do feel like transferin course…since i think i m more capable in marketing n sales…since i m quite approachable…especially talkin to others…that i dunno…..n moreover, now i m gettin more n more frustrated n demotivated..

about wat i did after class today..dun wan to mention anythin about it…nth so special….only update it tml…til then…guess i wanna to enjoy the last day of mine….n get myself ready for de comin busy schedule of mine…which got class almost on everyday…8 in the morning….til then….really wanted to cry…n regret..but unfortunately…it is too late…..haih……:(